All youngsters always had a big dream. There are few things that consider like a dream for all.
1. Own a House
2. Own a Car
3. Have a Bf/Gf (haha....perhaps)
4. Successful Career
Since, I graduated in year 2012, the basic dream I have is to own a Car. To others, it is actually not difficult right? Monthly installment only around RM350. With my current salary and new job, actually, I could fulfill my basic dream this year but this is not the case. I need to always standby the money for my father medical expenses. He might anytime admit to the hospital. Last week, he admitted to the hospital. He told me that he is worried about the money, I told him not to worry as I have money. In fact, do I really have that much money? I remember last year, the bill came out to RM4k and this time it is the same issue. So, I got to prepare, RM4K or more need to be spent. It is always the fistula tube which got infected.
The doctor and even the nurses from the dialysis told me that it could be easily infected if the bandage to wrap the tubes is being removed. Each time after dialysis, the nurse will wrap it nicely with bandage. Those who are reading this, if you are a dialysis patient, never ever remove any bandage which was being done by the doctor or nurse. You may get infected easily.
Although this issue had found out earlier, I even remind my father many times, due to his age and getting old and getting stubborn, he never ever want to listen to me and sometimes ended up with quarrel. So, in the end, who will suffer? Not just him got to face the consequences of the act but the daughter got to pay and bare for his consequences as well. What else can I complaint? He is my Father and I am his only daughter and only child. If I do not take care of him, who is willing to take care of him?
Sometimes, I feel really upset and down as I had been working so hard and save my money for the whole year but ended up got to spend on something that actually it could be avoided. This year, I got new job and higher pay. I got to admit that my financial status suppose to be better and indeed, I save more money than before. I was looking forward the end of the year which I could finally enjoy and something that I am wishing and looking forward to since I started working in year 2012. I even planned what to do and what I want to buy and enjoy. I listed down, everyday during my leave, what to do and where to go. So many plans even during in November when I inform my manager that I will clear my annual leave for more than a week.
Unfortunately, it ended up with a Great Disappointment. I think really positive that the money spend is to save my father and I love my father so much. I think, I only be able to enjoy during my 2days trip in Ipoh and during when I went to Comic Fiesta 2018, which is before my father admit to the hospital.
I am writing this post in my Blog because I hope any patient who are reading this post, please, you as a patient, I understand that you feel that you suffer to much due to your sickness but your care givers suffers too. They got to put extra efforts to work for the money or even work for few jobs for your medical fees and also to bare with your stubborn attitude (in case you are really stubborn). Therefore, please do not simply throw temper to your caregivers. After all, they took care of you and also they might be your next of kins.
